Hello friends!
To all of you out there who still might find the random musings of my life interesting, I say a warm hello. A large "meh" to the rest of the world.
So the last blog I wrote was WAY back in March (or May?) before graduation from nursing school, the national nursing boards exam, my 30th birthday, etc., etc.
A lot of changes, but a lot of NO changes too.
Let me explain...
So I graduated nursing school in May (yay me!) and then I took the NCLEX exam and passed (yay me again!) so now I'm officially a registered nurse. This is what I worked for for 15 LONG months. The fact that it's over is still a bit surreal.
But probably not so surreal for the rest of my classmates.
That is because, you see, they all have jobs. They're happily "nurse-ing" away at different locations around Texas. (And one in Wyoming.)
Me?
I'm sitting here.
Yep, just sittin' away. Slowly gaining weight and becoming dull-witted.
Why, you ask?
I'll tell you.
It's because I, alone out of 30 people, can not find a job.
Have I applied, you ask?
Yes, I say. To well over 50 positions.
But they do not want me.
I have not been called for a single interview.
Nada.
Zip.
Zero.
Zilch.
No one, it seems, has looked upon my application with favor and decided that I'm worth a quick glance. From April to September, week after week, application after application, I have been passed over and told, "Thanks, but no thanks."
Why is that?
I don't know. I can think of PLENTY of reasons, but I sincerely hope they're all untrue and just coming out of an increasingly deluded mind.
What do I do with my days, you might wonder. What does one do when faced with an eternity of NOT being the only thing you want to be, you may ponder.
Well I already told you. I sit here. And watch tv on the internet. And play stupid computer games. And talk to my dog. (He's wonderfully supportive.)
And slowly, slowly lose confidence that I will ever get to use the skills I worked SO hard to learn. It's not like I can go temp somewhere while waiting for something permanent. Nursing doesn't work that way.
So I wait. And I sit. And I wonder...
What was all that work for?
Why did go to nursing school?
When will I finally get a chance to do something I literally ache to do?
Because I'll tell you, it's no use being a nurse if you can't actually nurse anybody.
I suppose it's a bit like a carpenter without thumbs.
Forgive me the wallowing post, friends.
Maybe soon I'll be able to give a lighter, happier, sillier update.
But I doubt it.
